At this point I am disgusted with myself.
I want you but I'm playing games with you.
I don't want to fool around anymore.
I want a relationship.
I'm done messing around with guys and making myself look like a whore.
It's not cool anymore.
I'm done playing the games that I unfortunately play.
I want to have you and call you my own.
I want to commit.
I want to commit to you..
I'm glad that you will never see this because I would be mortified if you ever read it.